But, sometimes I want that more immediate fix; something tangible. I want something that feels good, NOW, or at least distracts me from whatever is going on within me. I want comfort foods!
And, clearly, by my own power, I cannot resist those cookies. It seems like I've been asking forever for that craving to be taken from me, so when I found this verse (searching for the "Sufficiency of Grace"), I knew I was on the right track for the blog. It struck me right between the eyes! Perhaps the thorn needs to stay in my side. (no, no, no, no, no.....)
My head knows, His grace IS sufficient, and when I overcome the challenges, it is not ME that does that, but Him. I, myself, am powerless. I can't do it. The moment I think I can, it's over...
Perhaps one day I will learn - in my heart as well as my head - that His grace truly IS enough. I hope that one day, it will be intuitive for me to turn to Him in the midst of my struggles - at those moments of want and "need" - rather than retrospectively. In hindsight, I know. In the moment, I struggle. To stuck in the world to see clearly.
May I turn to you in the moments when I need you most. Open my eyes and my heart to You. Help me to see, and to know - with every cell of my being - that Your grace IS enough. It is!
2 Corinthians 12:8-10 (New International Version)
8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.