Thursday, June 11, 2009

Success? Failure? Irrelevant

I had returned home after a night of VBS planning meetings. First with the adults and then with the youth I am mentoring. The house was empty except for the kitten. The dog wagged his tail, hopefully, in his kennel, requesting my attention.

The laundry, neatly folded on my bed, begged to be put away. But first, I grabbed my bible, a snack and some matches, and headed outside. I lit the citronella candle and freed the dog. Returning to my seat, I flipped to the back of the Book. "The One Year Reading Plan".

I'd started late, and technically, I'm still "behind". I make some progress, then slip back again. I found my place and read a few days worth of the Old Testament, Psalms and The New Testament.

As I closed the cover, a page of notes I'd taken during a service I hadn't interpreted caught my eye. On the back was a sentence that had fascinated me then, and resonated with me at that moment as well.

"Something is being achieved irregardless of our perceived success or failure".

I needed to hear that.

I'd done a few things on my To Do list - but not as much as I would have liked.

I'd done OK with my food choices that day - but not as good as I would have liked.

I'd made progress with the laundry - but not yet completed the task.

Other things are undone that need to be completed.

With time, I believe they will be.... what I doubt is whether I'll ever have enough time.

But to remember, that SOMETHING is being achieved, gives me hope. My perception of "success" or "failure", "good" or "bad".... irrelevant. I can't see the whole picture. I only see my little part... and not always very clearly.

Help me to trust that Your will is unfolding - whether I can see it or not.

1 comment:

kristin said...

Linda - I want you to know that I still look forward to reading your blog. I haven't commented in a while, but when I get here, it's like a meditation for me . Thank you.

I wonder if you'd mind if I share the link with Brother Christopher, the new youth and family minister here at the church where I work?

He's a wonderful person and very spiritual, and I think he would really enjoy reading about your journey - both your blessings and trials.