Friday, March 20, 2009

Retiring the Cape...

Just the other day, as I sat quietly on the bridge, staring out over the water, I learned that it is time to retire the cape. One of the things I had been "pretending I not to know" is that I cannot do it all. Not only can I not do it all, but I can't even keep the current schedule. Superwoman, I am not. I need to pare it down a bit.

I've been thinking about this for a long time, actually. But thoughts and actions are two entirely different things. Apparently the fire behind me is hotter than the fire in front of me, because, I am now walking. I have started to cross things off of my calendar.

I want to live intentionally. I want to cherish the moments. I want to come home and not collapse and say "I cannot do one more thing!", while there are dishes calling from the sink. I want to do things because I WANT to do things - and I want the things I do to have a purpose or value in my life.

I want out of the rat race. Little by little, I am making steps in that direction.

The thing that is amazing to me. Thus far, I haven't really done that much, but I already feel more rested and more relaxed. There is some peace in knowing I have an evening at home; that we're not rushing off somewhere else. I feel like I have a little more breathing room. And a little more quiet time with God.

I am prayerfully considering it and listening for His direction in what else shall go... and I will wait for confirmation before I willingly volunteer for or accept any other commitments!

I can breathe! YES!!

"When the fire in front of me is hotter than the fire in front of me, I will walk"

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