Saturday, January 17, 2009

Accountability, Transparency and Respectable Sin

It has been a long time coming...I have heard it in so many ways and from so many people. I know it in my mind and I have heard it in my heart. I have finally been given the courage to speak it. One of the "respectable sins" that I struggle with is my relationship with food.

It has been a life-long struggle, if I am honest - though I haven't always been aware of it. I have recently become aware of the fact that I turn to 'comfort foods' when I should turn to God. The irony is, of course that 'comfort food', comforts only very briefly. It then often becomes uncomfortable - either physically, mentally or emotionally. Since my awareness, it has also become uncomfortable spiritually.

This 'body temple' is not as God has designed it. I have not cared for it as I should. It is time to change that. Accountability, Transparency and bringing it forth, is the only way I know to loosen the noose enough, so I can finally let it go and give it to God.

So, before my house becomes a temporary storehouse for literally a thousand boxes of Girl Scout cookies, I have chosen to "show up", bring it to the Light, and trust that His Grace will be sufficient.

May I turn to You in my moments of fear and frustration. Search my heart - shine Your Light in any dark corners where pieces of this may still be hiding. Free me.

"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body,"
(1 Cor. 6:19-20).

1 comment:

Pam said...

been feeling very out of control in this area myself... and it is just not a big enough issue in my mind sometimes... i need conviction too. with you