Saturday, December 19, 2009

Plan or Conspiracy?

I must admit, when this thought first crossed my mind, I did laugh.... just a little, to myself....

I was recapping the past week or so, shaking my head and reminding myself that God is still in control, and there IS a plan in all of this. It's just that when I am being "stalked" so intently, it feels like more of a conspiracy.

Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier if He just showed up and pulled whatever it is that needs to be refined right on out of me, all at once. I'm sure there is a reason that He doesn't, but I can't help but wonder if it wouldn't be better just to get it DONE with.

Or perhaps that is what He is doing. So many times recently, when it seemed like I was at the end of my rope, suddenly, there appeared a knot, or a little more rope. "Hold on". "Trust me"

I know, I know, I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt, that there will be teaching and healing in this process. I will grow, and I will trust just a little more that all I need truly will be provided. Some of my attitudes will be refined and wounds will be healed.

I put my foot where He shines the light, and step by step, we'll move forward.

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