Where the Rubber Meets the Road

Well, it has begin. People have noticed and are beginning to comment. And it is at this point where I begin to "freak out" a little.

I was gathering my kids and a woman got my attention. "I don't want to get into your business or nothing like that," she said, "but MY GOD, you've lost a TON of weight". I was speechless. (Not QUITE a full ton, but apparently enough that they had to really be sure it was me). One of my friends called out from across the room, "Yes! she has..."

She asked what I had done. "Martial arts, and changed the way I eat...." (now SHE was speechless....) Apparently, it's a good combination that works well for me. And.... I feel good. Really good.

But, seriously. When people start to notice is when I start to back off. I lose my focus and my discipline and it all falls apart. It's like that point where Light and Darkness meet - I think the song says that's "where the healing begins...."

So, I pray for perseverance. I pray that I continue to push through the obstacles - internal and external - and DO THIS.

May He walk before me and beside me. I trust He has placed the people and situations in my life that I need to succeed.... if I trust.

It's that leap of faith... and it's where the rubber meets the road. If we don't keep walking through this - He and I - I'll never get any farther than I have been.


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for "inquiring minds", and the sake of being 'transparent' - it's 25 lbs thus far. (and yes, I'm thrilled...)

What we get used to....

I was amazed when I woke up for work Saturday morning.... exhausted. Typically 11p-4:30a was pretty routine. And then I experienced a few weeks of earlier bedtimes.... and a full night sleep. I felt good! Whoa... this tired thing, feels awful....

Same thing with food. When I am eating healthy, I feel good. I never connected the fast food or sugary treats (or hidden sugars in "healthy" foods!) to my exhaustion, headache, and general grumpiness. (Add tired and it's NOT pretty!)

Same thing with soda. I have had periods of time where I could drink liters of Diet Coke a day. Then, I've had periods when I've completely abstained (I'm there now!) In the midst of that, I experienced the "I feel awful!" 's that followed not long after ingesting one.

Same with exercise. When I'm regularly participating, I want to regularly participate. When I begin to skip - usually because I'm too tired or feel awful - I begin to make a habit of skipping, thus perpetuating the cycle.

Same with my relationships. I have been so stuck in what is that I don't realize until they change dramatically, or end, how they could have been better all along. Conversely, I realize how much I have missed a person's presence in my life when we reconnect.

May I live intentionally. May I set my feet where You lead, for You choose wisely!